Ending song, <love song> by 浜田真理子, one of her Live Romance album, piano with tender female voice, drew me back with those scences in this movie <Tokyo Boy> by Maki, Feb 2008.

 

  Once, or have to say that in this world, there's such love, love yourself, which may indicate that someone should get into extremely lonely, unbacked to despair. Maybe, or so, as Tagore neglected, the most distance is not that i stand in front of you, but you wont ever know how I love you although we've got together and become into one single person.

 

  That I love you, as said by Night, the other personality in Minato's mind, sounds so lowly as if not a certain hope, or just calling down, and God even wont give an opportunity for him Night to love Minato, while on the contrary, offers Night his last sleeping around Minato's arms, his vanishment.

 

  Try to protect Minato, as the meaning of his existence, Night finally realized his getting in the way for Minaot's eudaemonia, with last kiss on the mirror, leaving a man instead of him, to go on his task and accompany with Minato for rest life. However, Night took a last photo, holding his brand- the apple-, gazing at Minao, cool and without smile, but gave his all to Minato, no regrets.

 

  People at last, should go back to normal patterns, love included, then how's the memory? how's those people left alone, with their views of back? How's those compromising which for a better result?

 

  Last liking this song, with piano, alwasy my favorite, <Love Song>, lyrics below, check it out.

 

 

  First day

 

  Four season for the lover and laughter, I'll be allright, being along. Playing the song of <3月9日> by レミオロメン, band from JP, which is grouped with triple guys grown up together from ordinary to senior high school, bros. This song was composed for a friend of lead singer, while he's under marriage ceremony, with blessing wishes, a sense of sadness and unwillingness for departing, touching people's heart in this cold, year-gap winter.

 

  As for JP actress Maki, who's now becoming my favorite and admirable, and brings me lots of good impression on JP girls and their culture, hence, while setting the new year main target, i'd put in JP as a main work location intent, with decent JP speaking ability. God, who knows, such impulsion enforeced me to continue crazy thoughts in this new year gap, joking but still with seriousness.

 

  Time's up for so long holiday break, maybe to get some interesting readings and prepare for future JP tour or so.

 

  Here's the song for graduate day in JP, 9th. Mar, each year, reminds me of those passed days.

 

 

 

 

 

  Recently, got lost in this Japanese TV series <花ざかりの君たちへ>, and fall for lead actress, 堀北真希, as cute and boy-like shot hair, baby face and lucid eyes... God, with high school back end, happended lots of comedies and, leisure to my current life status, which's lazy and not mind to work as the holiday approaching.

 

  Temporaly, feel the sense of homesick, and desire to rest from life of quick-pace, maybe back to the nature, or wandering on the streets in SH, observing those i neglected when i still housed in SH.

 

  After New Year Break, another big target's that to get ready for hiking and prepare facilities related from HK, which'll cost extra money and energy, who knows i'd persist in or not, first step's important as milestone.

 

  Just mark and spur, happy new year.

 

  Here's the opening theme, sunny song with a trend to move out, shouting out. Please check it out.

 

 

 

  First meet with this song, was that comic leading song and even not know the name of that comic <Serial Experiments Lain>, cyberpunk work. But it brings me the feeling, that's far beyound words and imagination, lazy, long, weeping, woman voice, along with tig-tag flipping guitar and bass, tender drum steps, the band with one girl five boys, reminds you back towards those treasury days, beside the lake, laying on the lawn, eyes to the sky, no pain, no worries, you, yourself and nature.

 

  My neighbourhood, there's a big park with lake and grand lawn near the express way, which's once the fine Eden for us, these nauty boys with innocent activities, absent-minded but sticking to what they dream of.

 

  Falling, fading, drowning, losing, help to breathe, and we dont seem to understand, a shame, an honest man, with all the fears we hold so peak, will turn into whisper into someone's ear. Read into our mind, and we dont seem the lying kind a shame, then we just read our mind, with candle lighting smile we can share, once more and never back. We dont meant to heart others, but know it means so much, and everlasting, God spare us, to some purpose, and wait for our redemption and condonable.

Duvet, afloat, we've lost it all, in this ironic society, storm-tossed and scrabble.

 

  Here's the song <Duvet>, by BOA, a band from England.

 

 

 

 

  挂了，来这边还是挂了，一次，香港那边大概大楼风吹多了，回来拉了一个通宵，成为了真正的腹泻小王子，都说香港东西干净，可老娘直接判定：香港东西不干净，看，吃了就回来拉了吧。于是，我也相信老娘的话了，周一一早请了假，在家躺了一天，也终于有幸在下午后体验了那30分钟的，来自对面三角形建筑的，一天中唯一的阳光。

 

  此刻，坐在床上，看着一部极傻无比的灌篮高手真人版，好像叫什么《篮球火》，言承旭演，太傻了，可是，更傻的是我连换频道都懒。

 

  再回头说说抢奶记，这个标题够彪悍，主要因为那天，是三个人，同一个目的，一位是当了父亲的，为了给孩子买奶粉——大陆的奶粉可以都送给棒子吃——，一位是另一个孩子的舅舅，也是为了给侄子买奶粉，剩下的，我，没有孩子，不过，好奇香港的奶粉和大陆的到底区别在哪里，于是乎，三个男人，一大早，母猪进笼子般的，在关口排队入境了。

 

  头一次去，什么经验都没有，盯着大巴外的山丘，路边的绿化发呆，路边徐徐而过的英文广告牌，告诉我，这里是充满商机的世界，不久，过了，跨港大桥，司机大叔不知道说了什么，大概也是说，此刻便是维多利亚湾，多看两眼吧。游艇，岸边的高楼，标志性的总是出现在广告中的高楼，波澜起伏的山丘，和山上那些不知道多少钱一尺的房子，纸醉金迷的世界就在桥的对过，而我们的大巴，也开足了马力，冲向那个未知的小岛。

 

  下了车，问路，热心的香港市民，干净的马路街道，3个男人，在大街小巷里，疯狂的穿马路，呵呵，似乎告诉所有的路人，我们来自大陆，是来见世面，抢奶粉的，为了生活的。为了生活，交通规则算什么，人类最初也是再没有规则中生存下来的。

 

  到了入境管理处大楼，才发觉，那些楼梯，窗户，门，层高，什么都小了，真正当地的风格体现出来，我也觉得，那些外面看起来非常彪悍的楼宇，掩盖了很多，但正是掩盖，才让我们发觉两地的差异，才让我们努力，然后迷茫。签证处，发现了几个美女，终于在香港看到可以让人看第二眼的了，偷看之下，非常干净，不过这么多年看下来，知道那些应该是淡妆，还是觉得的，美女3分姿色，7分化妆，这话的确不假，感觉和上海的MM差不多，化妆行业的应该又会窃喜了，普天之下，女人们都离不开，这是一个圈，无论年龄。哈哈，好假。

 

  后来，去了波鞋街，满街8折，不过换成RMB还是很合算，给某人扫了双鞋子，自己都看了觉得眼馋，唉，好鞋配牛人，某人水平不行看样子要毁了双好鞋了。。。顺便给小霸王扫了双粉色Air Force 1，希望这小家伙读书乖一点，别再让老师叫家长到学校了，给自己也搞了Air Force 1, 呵呵，沾点光。

 

  回去的时候，见识了奶粉，惠氏的，好奶粉，两位有责任心的人拎了奶粉，我提着三盒鞋，背着给老娘带的面膜，爷爷的胃药，身心疲惫，踏上回去的火车，过关，回国。对这个城市没有留恋，拿走我们需要的，付出他们所冀望的，人类的生活此刻无比简单，交换无论在那里都有，也什么都有可能，甚至去交换人的一生。

 

  再者，回去的路上，火车路过了一些很偏僻的地区，有棚户，有简陋的居民区，没有奢华，没有喧嚣，平易近人。如果有时间，下次的我，不会去那些灯红酒绿的地区，那些高楼耸立，满街的商店食肆，向着贴近生活，向着让思绪停滞，这些地方，安静的盘山小道，自然的山区，背上我的旅行包和睡袋，去享受那些平静，体会真正当地居民的一天。

 

  年后，一头新驴即将踏上许多未知的区域，不用任何单反，用自己的眼睛，记忆，去体验回味那些走过的路。

 

 

  Every time I look in the mirror, all these lines on my face getting clearer. The past is gone, as it went by like dust to dawn, isn't that the way everybody has got their dues in life to pay?

 

  Love, love's a verb, love's a doing word, fearless on my breath, gentle impulsion, shakes me makes me lighter, and in the end, teardrop on the fire, black flowers blossom in this night.

 

  I gone, running at that night, 6 years ago, with plenilune's brightness on my shoulders, holding my cherished treasure, which's God spared me, grasping, pleasing and memorable, hoping to stay as of now to forever. 13 years ago, that very shot on my heart, composed a symphony, with tragedy, with happiness, with forgetful hurt, with a soul buried, with eternal figure dreamed of.

 

  The only photo took, teared at that dormitory, with a negative, holding still in my colllection box, shall never got the chance to show, wont?

 

  Yesterday night, after my solo basketball traning back, got the mail to my old account, which's never negelected and just waiting for one day, the reply from Jewel. By coincidence, invitation to Kaixin.com, by Jewel, i registered and soon find the only friend, she's still there, with head icon, great changes against 13 years ago, mature temperament, i dont know what to say and lighted my cigarette, immersing myself within those smokes.

 

  It's been 6 years since last time we took 708 bus, back home, that last meet, my buried wound, as time flies, cured yet? I cant give a definite answer to it, even not know whether the answer's right or not.

 

  Last quoting a song in 1998, which's chilling and creepy, little bit sadness with pure soul touching.

 

  Seven pounds of flesh, <The Merchant of Venice> by William Shakespeare. 

 

  How could you devote urself to this world? How could you sacrifise when ur lover are stepping into death, min by min? The world's in conflict, the same for humanity.

 

  Redemption, the whole line in this movie, shows how Ben, who's less than his forthcoming about his own life, to make his intricate plan, and his payment to God, to this unvaluable society.

 

  Selfish, what else people in this country concern about? The length and with of life, for human, under what circumstance, composite the best fit units? Now, each of us, complains all day long with no exsistence of personality, no more meaning in life but stimulations, those illusional, flashing joys, no cares for others, just believing he she's the centre of world, doing as he she wants, hurting everything he she neglects. Misbeliever of those so called liberation, carnalism, is that a good excuse for those faults you all made, how you feel the same situation when others suffering under your casual mistakes? Then, God knows, people independt know, and I know, the body has no soul, even one day we conquer the death problem, at that time, what's the difference between fantoccini and death?

 

  Inocent, youngster, who lost themselves in life, are longing for spirit on arts and hiking, to escape themselves from crucial reality, day by day, dreaming on their unimplementable targets, forgetting to adjust the focus between fantacy and reality, which let them alone, degenerating, immersing into rainbow, looking forward hopes but no courage and forgotten the concrete blueprints for long. God's smiling, coz that's a show, a comedy with tears and pain, tragedy.

 

  Nowthat, for you, dare to cut one pound meat of yourself, of your life?

 

  Sometimes, it's better to make mistakes early then late.

 

  For the movie <Seven Pounds>, really touching one, and deserves a second review, with so heavy content and theory of life meaning. Quoted some reviews as reference, checking it out below.

 

      上帝用七天的时间创造了世界。

　　TIM用七磅的自我拯救了世界。
　　
　　由于对SEVEN POUNDS这个名字很在意，所以特地去查了一下，但Pound没有一个释义符合这部影片的主题，所以似乎只能解释为七磅。——关于普遍认识到的七磅源于《威尼斯商人》的典故我就不多赘述了，我只是换一个角度理解。

　　就当我是个好事者，我特意去网上搜了一下，人的心脏重约一磅，肝脏重约四磅，肺查不到，但两磅似乎有，所以姑且让我牵强一点把“七磅”理解为TIM心脏，肝脏的部分，肺，肾脏，骨髓，眼角膜的重量——当然，还要加上灵魂。（有人说是21g）
　　
　　人为何而生?又为何而死？

　　我曾经想过自杀，并且感觉自己离死亡如此之近——我或许可以略微体会到一个决定结束自己生命的人内心那种复杂的情感。一切的亲情友情都不会再在考虑之内，有的只是对自我的残酷。

　　很多人不认同自杀这种方式——人存在与世界上不是用来死的。

　　但我尊重每个生命自己的选择，对于TIM这样的自我救赎，我更抱以敬意。——生活在浮华世界中的我们，很多甚至连面对自我的勇气都没有。
　　
　　人活着为了谁？——依稀记得曾经有人讨论过“为自己而活”还是“为他人而活”，但我更觉得，我们并不一定非要为了他人或自己而活，但只要我们活着，我们就必须为他人付出。

　　当TIM把他的海边别墅给那个单身母亲的时候，看到那一家人在海滩上快乐的奔跑，我内心不禁萌发出一个想法，“如果换作我，我会这么做么？” 我想我会，在被自己男友抛弃并且险些被他害死之后，这个母亲的心似乎已经死亡，她就像一只永远躲避着阳光的小鸟，带着他们的孩子逃离现实——如果说，如果说我有那样的能力，我愿意给他们另一种生活——就像TIM做的。让我们浪漫一些，或许我们可以帮助他人获得新生。
　　
　　因为 谁都不是上帝 但谁都可以成为天使
　　
　　但全片更令我动容的是Emily，一个先天性心脏衰竭患者，却对生活是如此的热爱，或许我们许多人都达不到她的境界，但或许也是那样的环境，那样的不可抗力，才让Emily对生命如此珍惜，也正是这种珍惜，才使她对生活如此的热爱——一切在TIM出现在她人生中以后开始得以释放。对于我们这些终日为了工作、家庭、自我……忙碌的人，是不是也该更对我们的生活抱以更多的珍惜与热爱？
　　
　　我想我会一直记得TIM和Emily相拥而眠的那个晚上，Emily说：我希望我的寻呼机会响。TIM说：我希望我们有孩子——或许这句话不仅是对Emily说的，也同样是对他的妻子。
　　然后，他们相拥而泣。
　　
　　但最终要面对的，依旧是死亡。

　　在TIM在浴缸中挣扎的时候，我突然感到人生的残酷，拯救他人或许是TIM的救赎，但终究只是拯救了他的世界——不包括他自己。而最终，或者说一开始，他就选择好用这种残酷的方式结束自己的生命。——其实从一开始就没有救赎，因为TIM从来没有原谅自己。
　　
　　那么，最终残酷的死亡是救赎么？
　　或许。
　　
　　因为这是他所能做的最后一件事。然后，他的生命将在Emily，Ezra，Holly，Ben，Connie，那位老者以及那个小男孩的生命中延续。