A good movie deserves a second time to review those detailed content and thoughts between the lines.

  With those album for this movie, i'd been delved into those scenario and sometimes, i could clear remember roles in it, vividly, which's also another thinking through with meaning of life.

  I do admire their communication way by recording talks in tapes as for exteranl memories, meanwhile, long long ago, maybe in 6 years ago, i did use such way but not types, mails instead, for communication and quarrel, tragedy is it. It's been buried deeply for years, and till today, from the very beginning day, 1995, as in grade 6 for elementary school, when i was bumped into jewel. Years passed, the impact stays along side.

  As time goes on, we know that you may not forget, but could not abandon. When the dramatis personae cried in rain, on the phone, telling his friend, he could not forget AGi, could still feel AGi's nearby, just as 17 years ago. It makes me resonant, for 13 years, those scenes, memories, are still clear, while the track of fates leads to various directoins.

  From this movie, i know that if i could not dig out my wound deep in heart, it wont find the exit, then my life will by no means step out those forbidden walls, making round of history. In movie, the man finally got the last tape, which give hime a last exhort, to live as normal, live on your own. I'd be finding my tape, my direction, my release.

  Degenerative Angel, Lucifer, to hold sensibility, liberalism and bear the responsibility of being the shadow of God, and his angels, chooses to live beneath, endures flaming hell and blame by human. Sometimes, life's not true from appearance, but you should gotta bring, bring to find out.

  I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do, and all the roads we have to walk are winding and all the lights that lead us there are blinding.

  I got to build my wonderwall.

  A wonderful afternoon, after back from lunch, there's a new mail in my box, and it's from Music Memories, a nice radio program i've rently listened to. I'd written a mail last Mon, to the host Gracie, with a request for my favorite song. This, surprising reply, reminds me of those passed days when i sat before my desk, doing homework late night, leaning on my window, gazing at moon and stars, which's accompanied with my naughty hotfoot, laughing out.

  Kobe, has grown up, into a man, who knows the very balance of life, no pain no gain, the more you want, the more you lose.

  Here's my post and feed back from Gracie, for remarking.

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Dear Gracie: 

The first time I came to listen to your program, is also the first time I left my hometown to the city ShenZhen, south China, which’s 1400 km away. During my schoolhood, I was always standing by my radio and enjoy everynight of my favorite music, and that’s the best memory but stopped after I’ve graduated and been to work. By a chance, I got the opportunity to work outside Shanghai, and because the local TV’s mainly in Cantonese speaking, I got to your program, resuming my golden time with radio.

Thanks a lot for your hard working on this program, and with those lingering meaningful old songs, I’ve released certain kind of pressure and homesick. In this info-booming century, most of us, who used to spend a whole night with radio once, have been unavoidablely infected, thrown away that traditional communication of music and soul, with the striking of other new medias. But you know, there’ll still be some people, insisting on what they think is valuable, protecting our beloved way of radio broadcasting. Hope your program flourishing, together with we audiences.

Here’s my little request for a song, <望月> (Cantonese), by Jacky Cheung, from my favorite TV <上海人在东京>. After years, it’s good to reflect the life status of my own. Would you kindly to inform me the date you’ll play? Thanks.

Yours Best 

Kobe Wang
Consultant, SAP Netweaver 
Compass Consulting Group, HK
Tel. 0755-82874134
Fax. 0755-82874172

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ありがとう-Kokia

永遠の孤独

  Life's like a cup of water, no season, no color, but meaningful to drinkers. Simultaneouly, not each question a need corresponding anwser, we just care about the procedure.

  Recently, pressure and self-centring atmosphere surrounded me and hence, those Japanese films, with full exquisite sentiment and touching melody, took the chance and beared me down.

  Tonight, another film <涙そうそう>, 2006, which's another old and with large audiences work by 长泽まさみ. I dont know why, but have to convinced that i've seen a certain mount of her works and that role she played in every film, giving me a kind of sunny girl next door, who's always smiling like sun, crying like rain, acting with passion. Maybe it's related with my current mental status and my habit of dreaming back, back to those pure days with sole thoughts and activities.

  Endure, this is the main clue of the love between brother and his sis, which's hard to speak out, but infected in everyday's accompany. For so long, that diligent Bro has taken so much and just with a very hope for his sis to live better and have prospective future. This's trust, the fine base on every thing, love included, to enable people overcome tough situations.

  Sometimes, when i had finished my housework every weekend, taking a break, I was thinking, about the mentality of person. Why we can build those highrises in short period, change the nature of earth for man's sake, create the myth of business heros and empires, while we could not even solve the everlasting problem that puzzles all of us, trust? We could get everything we want, othters could throw away mercy God hands out, but we've not made a certain big progress on ourselves.

  For centuries, we physically revoluted the earth, betraying the nature, hence, we are poor in spirit. With trust, even when you lost yourself and dont know what to do, it will see you through, perhaps.

  Quoted from other's movie reviews, for my awkward description and writing styles.

  影片是从一个杂乱平凡的农贸市场开始的，男主角带着当天早上要外送的货物开摩托开始了平凡的一天。人们亲切的招呼，玩笑，一切都仿佛一如既往。却在男主角自顾自呵呵笑着在集市角落的旧镜子前整理永远杂乱的头发时，让人看出了端倪。这一天到底是不平常的，因为分别了多年的妹妹就要回这里的老家和他见面了。

  整个影片的节奏不紧不慢，处处有南方海滩小镇特有的明媚淳朴气息。这里一年四季都有风，质朴到土气的各色窗帘总是日日夜夜地飘动着，带来不远处海翻滚的声音。人们都穿着廉价的丝毫不时髦的衣服，操着重重口音互相开玩笑。
这里的情感都很淳朴，而贯穿全片的哥哥和妹妹的感情，是整部影片最值得回味的。从哥哥在片头拿起妹妹的行李中那个破旧的玩具兔子，引发一连串跳跃的回忆开始，这份深切质朴的感情就让人唏嘘不已。

  这对毫无血缘关系的兄妹其实彼此已是有了超越亲情的牵绊。却是各自说服着自己，然后在觉得难以面对的时候淡淡地讪笑着逃避。

  所以妹妹在初见哥哥的女友时突然沉默，转而又笑容灿烂地拉着未来的嫂子拉家长，却在看到那两个人夕阳里靠在一起的背影时落寞的眼神无处可放。所以在决定让妹妹搬家各自居住的时候，妹妹鼓足了勇气说哥哥我最喜欢你，我爱你，说得模棱两可，哥哥嗔怪地笑了，却在分别的时候各自捏着鼻梁拼命忍泪。

  哥哥的离去是突然的。什么都还没来得及实现，对即将到来的妹妹的成人式、重建自己的店以及好多其他事情正有着如此单纯美好的向往期待，却什么都来不及说一句地在风雨之后突然离开了。直接的原因还是因为去救暴风雨中的妹妹。

  影片的最后穿着黑色丧服的妹妹收到那个包裹看到那封信，包裹里是哥哥为成人式准备的振袖和服。信上的人元气满满地说期待重逢的那一天，说妹妹穿上这套和服定会是同级生里最漂亮的一个，说终有一天会重新建起属于他们和爸妈回忆的海边小店。而那人已是只留了手边案台上黑框中的笑脸。如果我是那个妹妹，也一定会痛不欲生。

  冲绳浅米色的海岸上留下两排小小的脚印。手牵手走过的时候，年幼的妹妹问了好多哥哥永远无法解释的问题。比如爸爸，比如妈妈，比如为什么不能当哥哥的新娘。

  一切归于无声的时候只听到稚嫩的声音在说
  为什么？
  不知道
  为什么？
  不知道

        终于还是，在一个明媚的周末下午，做好手头的琐事后，静心下来欣赏那些我久之没有触及的影片，那些需要静心才能去欣赏的收藏。于是，选择了《世界の中心で、爱をさけぶ》，一部2003年的老片，或许，很多影片，需要陈放一段日子，就像美酒一样，等到从地窖中取出，便是品尝的最佳时机了。 
        影片2个多小时的时间里，作为观众的我也随着剧情和人物的发展，感知了很多生活中久远了的，被忽略，被遗忘的意义，那些不需太多理由和欲求，却让人为之一生付出的单纯。 
        生活的厚度决定了一个人的眼界，在眼花缭乱世界里人太容易被雷同，唯独缺乏的是自己。 
        相信，每个人的心里都有一片属于自己的风景，它有着湛蓝的颜色，在你步入暗夜的漫长旅途里，让你记取希望的光芒。  

        转载一篇影评，弥补我拙劣的文笔。  如下：  
        可以不忘记，不可以不放弃 
      午后雷声滚滚，之后大雨倾盆，闷热被大雨滤去，这种心情，就好像《在世界中心呼唤爱》的结尾，朔站在澳洲被称作世界尽头的地方，手捧亚纪的骨灰，看着风扬起白色的粉末，一脸灿烂的笑容，就是那种心情，我们叫它释然。
　　17岁的时候，亚纪因白血病过世。又过了17年，朔想走进一段婚姻，为寻找未婚妻律子，返回故乡，却是把17年前的记忆一幕幕打开。我们看到，他一次次失声痛哭，他那么软弱无助，他说，我忘不了亚纪。
　　他们的生日只差5天，亚纪大，对他说，你还没在我就在了，我走了你也要好好活下去。结果是，他又重新活了一遍亚纪在世的岁月，终于想走出去。
　　为什么那么不舍？只是因为太美。两个17岁花季少年的初恋被渲染得太过完美。从没有争吵、误解，亚纪总是那么善解人意。哪怕生气了，也总是先来缓和。他们比赛谁先得电台随身听，朔编了个凄惨的故事，关于一个得白血病的女孩，赢了。亚纪恨他欺骗，不想跟他说话——想当初，她主动坐上朔的摩托，让他带去海边，朔不解，她笑着说，就是为了跟你说话啊——还是想说，就录到磁带里，交给朔。以后，他们就用这种方式倾谈，记住了岁月。
　　有一天亚纪问，人死了爱情也会消失吗。她选择了录音带，可能也是害怕自己如此消失。跟朔照了婚纱照，也是不要朔忘记她。
　　不要忘记。这就是亚纪最大的心愿。朔也真的没有走出去。因为他没见到她最后一面。没收到她最后一盘录音。其实，那里，她告诉他，像一个普通人那样，好好活下去。
　　重新听那些录音带，往事的闸门一开，昔日的记忆奔涌而至，甚至，他恍惚间，和亚纪在礼堂相见，亚纪弹着琴，对他说爱他。
　　朔在此时近乎崩溃，打电话给好友，哽咽不能语，到拍照的重爷那里，瘫坐在地上，说自己完了，忘不了亚纪。
　　但是，他可曾知道，有些结搁在那里，不经触动，不代表就真的忘了，就像那些被钉死在木箱里的录音带，其实一直都在，只有打开，再去面对，重新经历一次锥心的痛楚，才有希望解得开结。
　　他哭出来了。
　　前段时间，看到巩俐说往事，和张艺谋分手后，在柏林影展上，两人首次见面，一见到，巩俐就哭了，背过身去摸泪。众所周知的往事。今天，巩俐说，哭了以后就好了，我终于可以放下。那段感情是在那里彻底划上了句号。
　　也许别人会以为那是不能忘情。不过是所有经历、不敢触碰的，在那一霎那奔涌而至，无法不动情，但是，是流出了那一滴泪，所以，那个伤心它终于找到了出口。
　　回到本片，也是一个人给从前的感情找出口的故事。直到他大哭不止，隐藏了很多年的郁结，一下子释放，这时候，心里才会通亮，才好走前路。
　　本片印象很深的，就是深深浅浅的光线，照在每一个记忆的画面里，让一切都朦胧都美，这就像是那段太过于完美的爱情，得不到愈显珍贵，没有误解，没有争吵，只有懵懂的男孩，机灵的女孩，以及要在17年后才听得懂的心情。
　　他们的那些录音带，已经变成了最美好的记忆，而且，只是记忆，再想起来，是微笑了——只会感谢那一段生命里的相伴，而不再是无法自拔的痛楚。朔懂得了，亚纪是他的一部分，会一直和他在一起，她在天堂看着他，要他过得幸福。
　　那个看起来傻傻的男孩，从隔离病房出来，晃晃悠悠走在狂欢的人群里，充耳不闻耳边的嬉闹，只愣怔着，跌跌撞撞地走——那时我们悲伤，再喧闹的世界，近在咫尺也目不暇给。而看了电影，回想情节，在大路上，匆匆车流、人影也全忘了理会，竟是一样的感受呢。